Blame

I probably need to figure out how to not blame myself for things outside of my control. Because as you can probably imagine I blame myself for the failed implantation. Maybe I didn’t relax enough during my “princess days” or I relaxed too much. Maybe I did a medication incorrectly. Maybe I’ll make a terrible mother and so God doesn’t want me to have children. The list goes on. It’s interesting that I feel the need to take responsibility for the failure because I am normally too prideful to do so. I also am really bad at attempting things I’ve already failed at once. It will take some mental recovery to try again.